I guess I'm blogging again huh?
Short-ish warning for you friendo. This is a VERY long blog… Enter at the risk of reading for a little bit.
Wed, 9th July
Blowup Incident
hi, im back again. All the power went out so I didn’t really get to do anything today. Yesterday I held my feelings in a bit too much and just let it all out at once and exploded at my dad (which isn’t fair on him, we’re cool now though). After the mass nuke of emotions hit him I just needed some space, so I walked up to the local shopping centre. It was around 8:20pm I think? While walking up the street I looked up at the sky and it was kinda cinematic icl. The clouds were popping off so I grabbed my phone and TRIED to take a good photo but the powerlines were in the way (curse you, electricity). I was jogging around for a bit until I actually decided to go to the local shopping centre to just vibe.
(Please Note that I’m writing this a day later)
The Shopping Centre
When I was walking up to the shopping centre, I saw a bunch of cats (A good 10-15) just vibing close to the footpath. I was so confused so I just sat with them for about a minute. A couple of people walked by, even a small family of 3 staying to look at all the cute cats. I was about to leave until I saw an older lady come out to feed them. The small family there was very nice, asking a lot of different stuff about the cats and the food she was feeding them, etc. When it got too late for the family it was just me and the lady feeding the cats, so I went up to start conversation. The conversation was actually beautiful. The lady’s name is Anne. I got to learn a lot about the cats there and about Anne’s life. We talked back and forth, and she was so funny as well. Now don’t worry about the cats, the local government issued something saying that nobody can bring harm to those cats and that they’re free to be there. And people don’t get in-trouble for feeding the cats. There are a lot of bad people out in the world, and you don’t usually see people doing kind things alot of the time, but Anne is one of those kind-hearted people. Made me feel really good seeing the small kittens get fed. After a bit my Dad drove down (worried that I was still in a bad mood). He started talking to all the people there and I took a moment to just close my eyes and take the moment in. I was happy I walked up there at that time. We finished our conversations by around 10pm. When we hopped in the car, my Dad and I decided to talk about life, and different stuff. It really helped centre my emotions (because I hadn’t let anything get out of my system since December-ish).

Thu, 10th July
Well, today’s been interesting tbh. I woke up multiple times this morning at like 2am and 5am and stuff, but when I actually woke up normally (at 8am) I felt oddly better. It was probably because of last night, being able to get my emotions back to ground level. All the stuff that stressed me out before is still there, but it’s more all just in the background while I focus on other stuff that I enjoy like writing this blog, working, etc. Oh yeah!! Speaking of work, I started work (sorta) ontime today instead of being super late (like I normally am). I did a small job for a painters company which was nice, and started writing my blog after. Right now it’s 1:26pm. No idea what the rest of the day has in store for me but I hope it’s good to me.
My Feelings in the Open
To be honest, I miss a couple of things from last year. I haven’t really grown much from a year ago. I met someone very special to me, and we stopped talking in December (technically in February but whatever boomer). I’ve been very attached since stopping our talks and ever since last night I haven’t been able to get into a semi-good mood. After last night’s talk, I feel a lot more open and free. Not confined to feel the disgusting feeling I did before. I do hope that this person comes back eventually, but I’m not going to rely on it anymore. I’m going to move forward with my life and put it to the back of my mind. I’m hoping that I get successful with my business this year and that I can make enough money for my family do be very comfortable. I’ve also found the process of writing this down in a blog a lot more comforting than writing it in some personal private journal. It’s a lot easier to type more words than physically write it all with a pen, and it feels like at least one person is going to see all of what I type. I don’t really mind if a random person were to read this or if it were just me writing out to a bunch of my friends. I wouldn’t really care that much.
Random Stuff
I wanted to talk about some things floating around in my square brain for a second. One of which being Thai Massages. Sometime in March I had my first ever Thai massage, and it felt amazing. Only thing is that there are a few really dodgy ones out there that offer things that I’m not exactly looking for.. So I go to the safe ones that my Dad shows me. There’s this one that’s a bit of a drive away called “My Thai”. It’s honestly the place with the best masseuses I’ve ever had. They treat you super well, always check if they’re doing the massage too hard or if they’re hurting you, honestly they’re all super nice. It’s so relaxing whenever I’m able to go to that place, I love it so much. I don’t know how I could possibly give them enough compliments. 10/10 massage place imo. But they’re a bit of a drive away so I really only go whenever I need something to centre me and make me feel more calm. They also free up your muscles quite a lot (which I love). If someone from My Thai ends up reading this, I wanna thank you for doing such a good job (I know that you’re all hard workers, bless you all).
ok enough about massages… hmmmmmmmm what else is in this minecraft block of a brain I have… oooo right, music again! I love music. On the last blog I wrote a lot about the music I was listening to, but I want to correct that fact. I was only listening to those songs specifically on the day I did the blog (2 days ago). I listen to a wide variety of songs. I like classical, chinese rnb, etc. My favourite artists of all time have got to be (uhhh) Wang OK, Ginger Root, Diverseddie, Towa, Tyler the Creator, Sarah Kang, Joji, Glass Animals, and Alt-J. Now, there are a couple of songs that I just want to mention (by a couple, I mean a couple million so lock in and get ready to read).
MUSIC
ok so heres a couple (million) of songs I want to mention. I love listening to them smmmmm <3
Sailor Song
Gigi Perez
WANDERLUST
Paul Partohap
The cutest pair
Regina Song
Before Spring Ends (在春天消失之前)
王OK & 李天责
pity dirty
pami
Meet Your Again
Ebony Loren & Jason LaPierre
Loretta
Ginger Root
Pasilyo
SunKissed Lola
怪天氣
YELLOW黃宣, 9m88
Nomo
Diverseddie
Over the Hill
Ginger Root
Orange Marmalade
Diverseddie
What a hard desire to embrace you
OK Wang
危险派对
Yitai Wang
月亮里的玫瑰与故事
OK Wang & DAYDREAM
Moon Ride
Anthony Lazaro & Sarah Kang
Nisemono
Ginger Root
ghost choir 👻🎵
Louie Zong
Most Wanted
Towa
These songs are sorta all the same. (except for Most Wanted by Towa that song is mental). They give a good vibe and uhhh idk? Just usually make me feel chill. Give them a try too if you’re not scared to.
ok uhhhh now what?
Well I’ve talked about most of the stuff I wanna talk about. Right now its 3:30pm so I’m gonna take a break and do whatever I want I guess? I hope you guys all have a good day <3